Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Supply and Demand

But mostly demand

I have a busy life. Busier then I would like at sometimes. Not busy enough other times. Last night I went to a meeting. We were trying to plan out the end of the year.

Let's say crazy.

We can't do this that day because of this is scheduled.
We can't do this at this time because of this.

I won't be there due to other obligations.
I can't be in two places at once.

Then we began the ........... let's think about next years calendar.

Then I look at my calendar. I look at my sons calendar. I am SO THANKFUL that we have said our kids can be involved in 1 thing. Any other things would be a mom/dad choice thing if we so desired. Like if we wanted to do swim lessons with our kids.....those would be a set day/set time and wouldn't add burden.

I am working on many things. Somethings I have a "supply" for and other things are just simply a "demand."

Tuesday, April 22, 2014


My motivation is zapped.
My energy is zapped.
My give a care was zapped the other day.

Thankfully for the last 3 nights my wee one has slept all night. Still doesn't make it any easier to get up after him sleeping all night because I'm still catching up on my own rest. I admit though it is so nice to hear a nice happy child talk the first thing in the morning. However, he does not like to be waken from his sleep prematurely. He's a grump then......then again I think most people are when they are prematurely waken.

Today, I must get some laundry folded and put away around here. Today, I also must go to the grocery store. Let's hope my energy, motivation and give a care isn't zapped before I can accomplish those things.

But first......I must teach my children their lessons in school today.

Life of a mom.
A homeschooling mom.

Monday, April 21, 2014

He Knows!

There is this lady that I have never met that I can understandably relate with. She has endured three miscarriages in one year. While that is more then I have had she talks about how over the weekend it was hard to hear the gushing over her brother's wife "expecting the first grandchild."

Those babies we never held in our arms. Aren't a family number. They are a loss number. They will be a child that no one in this life knows. God knows though.

God knows his creations.
God knows our desires.
God knows our tears.

I struggled. Then again. I already had babies who needed me. I had to put on my strong pants. I had to put on my mommy hat. I had to continue to be a wife. No one ever said it would be easy. It wasn't. There were days I questioned my abilities. Life had to go on.

Then I lost a 2nd one. Talk about questioning and asking why. There wasn't a day I didn't think about those babies. Those babies I would never hold. It wasn't until the one time my question to God got my attention. I said "Why do you love her more then you love me?"

Then my brain. My mind. My heart. It all went on overload.

God didn't love someone else more. He had a plan. For them. He had a plan. For me. He had a plan.  Since that question......I haven't dwelled on my losses any longer. Doesn't make some things any easier. A loss is still a loss.

Reality is I have so much to live for. I have three wonderful earthlings. I have one more on the way. This is it. This is my life. This is where God wants me.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Toilet Wars

Since Thanksgiving we have only had one working bathroom in our home. Yes, this is a first world problem but in a home with two bathrooms I am just thankful that we had a spare.

It all started when our toilet leaked. It apparently leaked for a while. It was NASTY. So we peeled up the flooring and took the toilet out. We had plans to fix it quick. Then we decided that well the shower faucet was leaking when we took a shower. Well, let's rip it out. That lead to my husband taking a week of vacation at Christmas. We lost 2 1/2 days of work 1 1/2 of them due to the holiday.

Then the project was on hold until the next time we had a day or two. We dabbled where we could by getting the walls out and back in. Then I found out I was expecting our 4th. My husband took a day off work for Valentines day so we could go confirm the pregnancy. So we worked on the bathroom that weekend too.  Then the water heater went out and any money we had for the bathroom project went towards the water heater.

Then the kids and I went out of town for Spring Break. My husband spent a few days with his friend working on getting the wall joints mudded and prepped. Then hello insane amount of things to do on the weekend. From Scout activities to birthdays.

So hello 3 day weekend for Easter. Now moving right along. We got up yesterday only to realize our 2nd bathroom toilet was now leaking. We caught it early. Whew! The flooring came up yesterday. While my husband worked on cutting tile for the master bathroom. I worked on peeling linoleum off the floor.

This morning as I was in the bathroom. There was a knock at the door and a line of people waiting to get in. Oy vey!

The good news: by tomorrow night we will have two functioning toilets in this house. It makes a pregnant mama happy.